Sunday, May 4, 2008

ANNIVERSARY

Hard to believe but its been 2 years this weekend since I had a cigarette. I still cant believe I did it, I never pictured myself a "non smoker". While I dont think about it everyday I still get an occasional craving and I know its something I will battle for the rest of my life. Smoke still smells good to me. Sometimes its over powering if theres a lot of people smoking at once, but for the most part Im not bothered by it. I wish I was, it would make it a lot easier! I know I will never go back because quitting was too damn hard and I dont want to do that again. I really think that had I not gotten pregnant I would have never quit. That was my motivation. Im pretty sure Steve would have divorced me had I been smoking while pregnant. He was a motivating factor. I didnt want to disappoint him. I did it cold turkey. I slept for the first 3 days. Barley got out of bed. I figured if I was sleeping I wouldnt be craving, eating or crabby. I was also so light headed and shaky that I didnt want to get out of bed. And at the end of the 3 days I figured I had gone this long and I did not want to revisit the lightheadedness. That was the worst. So here I am 2 years later, and never cheated once! GO ME!

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Happy Aniversary, mine was May 2 I have 6 yrs. You are right about never picking another one up. I quit for 1 1/2 yrs and was at a bar one night with a few to many and everyone around me smoking. I said just give me one. I was back smoking a pack a day within a week. I learned a good lesson because now after 6 yrs I still want one sometimes but why start a really expensive habit. Im not 16 anymore and Its just not cool...MJ

Sally said...

Wow MJ 6 years already? When did you move? Has it been that long too?