Awww

Wow, 3 posts in one day! Ryan is taking a nap so Im trying to catch up on all thr thoughts in my head! I got the nicest compliment the other day. It came from Linda. She said sometimes when shes sad she has 3 happy things she thinks of to cheer her up. She said I was one of them, that my life has completly turned around and when she thinks of me it reminds her that miracles really do happen. Isnt that the nicest thing anyone could ever say?! So many people have done such nice things for us that Steve keeps walking around here going "You have the nicest friends and they really care about you". And boy is he right! I love you guys!

You know your a half way decent parent when...

You kid picks the moral parents as the ones he'd want to live with on Wife Swap. Do you guys watch that show? There are always 2 sets of crazy parents. But usually the one that seems like they might be the normal ones, are quickly converted to the losers. We watched on episode where there was one family who dresses up like clowns and panhandles on the street for a living. Kids were panhandling too. Long haired, hippie freaks who lived in a small dirty crappy house. But, education and family was extremely important. The (elementary school age) kids would sit down with mom and dad every night and do homework together. They had quality time with there kids even if it was dressing up like Bozo and juggling. They tell there kids "you can grow up and be anything you want in life, just don't be stupid". (I now use that line often). Now it sounds pretty stupid to be preaching about growing up to be stupid when your out there panhandling, but they enjoyed being clowns and choose to make there living this way. What I mean by that is they make no excuses for not having a real job. They make enough money and they enjoy what there doing. Not that I agree with that. The other family lived in a nice house, but they were party animals. They didn't require there kids do any home work at all, and most times didn't care if they even went to school. They partied all the time, with there kids who were maybe in Jr high or early high school. At the clubs during the week with them, and of course they set no rules for the kids having an established bedtime. Sometimes they would be up all night and skip school. Dad waited on mom and the kids hand and foot, and mom and the kids dressed like hookers and wore enough make up to look like Bozo's sister. I always ask Zachary who he would rather have as parents. He chose the clowns! Ya that's my boy! Now I realize that calling the clowns the moral family is an oxymoron, as they are teaching there kids to panhandle rather than get a real job, but you catch my drift. They were clearly the lesser of 2 evils, and the better parents by far.
Last night, we had a family who again lived in a nice house, but mom and (14 yr old) daughter were convinced they were princesses. They walk around with crowns and wands. They sleep in the same bed together while dad slept in a separate room with the dog. They had princess party's, they made dad wait on them hand and foot- cooking cleaning ect. Mom and kid were completely spoiled. Spent lots of money on clothes and mom confessed she wont even leave her bedroom without make up on. The kid is disrespectful to everyone but her mother because everyone else is beneath them. Then we have the other family who bottles deer pee for a living and sells it to hunters. And they do this in the house so the whole house smells like urine. But this is the family business and they all are a part of it. Kids too. They are in high school. Aside from the deer pee, they seem relatively normal with pretty good morals. Mom shopped at the thrift shop because, (as she said) "why would she get dressed up to work in a barn? The deer don't care what she looks like". Kids are respectful with good work ethics despite what they do. So I ask Zachary who he would rather live with and he chooses deer pee family. I'm so proud!

Devils Money

In our account today we have $666.66. Im a little afraid of what lies ahead for the rest of the day! Maybe I should go back to bed and pull the covers over my head just in case!

Sex, Lies and Videotape

Went for my post pardom appt last Thurs. Cant believe its already been 6 weeks. My incision is healing well. I try my hardest not to look at it. Its yucky! Ive lost 20 out of 34 lbs I gained. Good start, but I have a lot more than 34 lbs to loose. I will take what I can get. I'm still healing on the inside so Dr said I can now resume normal activities in moderation being careful not to overdo it.
Two funny stories have come up regarding the 6 week no sex period that just keep making me laugh. I wont name names, but I have to share because I just think its hysterical.
One friend was told by her Dr to wait 4 to 6 weeks for sex after her baby was born. She told her husband they had to wait 46 weeks! And he believed her!
Another went to her post pardom appt and begged her Dr to tell her something was wrong with her so she wouldn't have to have sex with her husband!
Too funny!

Grey's Anatomy

They cant kill off Meredith Grey! They just cant! I'm so addicted to Grey's Anatomy it isn't even funny. I wait for Thursday like its Christmas! I cant remember the last time I was so into a TV show. Anyway, I keep telling myself they wont and cant kill off the main character. I mean it wouldn't be called Grey's Anatomy without Meredith Grey right? I dont think they are. I was going to listen to a podcast with Shonda Rhimes but it was 22 minutes long and I dont have 22 minutes to spare. Anyway, I really like Derek Shepard with Meredith not Addison, despite the fact that I think Addison is one of the most beautiful women ever. I figure if I cant have McDreamy (because I'm already taken) than Meredith should. I love the George and Izzy best friendship. Speaking of friendship, in last nights episode Cristina was looking for Meridith the entire hour so that she could share her engagement news. At one point she says to Preston "If I commit murder, she's the person I would call to drag the body accross the living room floor" and then she screams "She's my person!". Well said. Suzie said it best on her blog when she said "When Shonda Rhimes gets it right she really gets it right". Everyone should have one person they call following the good the bad and the ugly. Your person would never judge you or question you. Just be there for you. Always.

First Friends

Ryan met his first friend this past weekend. Mason is 2 weeks older. My first friend was Amy. My mom and her mom were best friends since high school. Amy and I were born 3 days apart, in the same hospital. So I have literally known her since birth. We did a lot together growing up. Both our moms were divorced so it was always the 3 Buck girls and the 3 Kraus girls. We were in each others weddings, and we were even pregnant at the same time. Her little guy is due next month. We don't get to see each other as much as adults now that we have our own family's and busy schedules, but I do treasure the times the 6 of us had. Now Mason's dad Kevin has been a good friend of Steve's since they were teens. This is Kevin's first child, so they were going through our pregnancy's for the first time together. Here's to hoping they grow up together and become best buds!

Mommys Little Piggy!

So many things to blog about, so little time! Let me apologize to everyone that I haven't called back, haven't emailed ect. I'm not ignoring you! Here's whats new. Ryan went for his 1 month appt. He is now 11 lbs, 7.5 oz. He is in the 90th% for his weight. He has only grown a quarter of an inch. The Dr said not to worry, that measurement can be really off if he is not completely straight, or wiggling. So he is in the 10th percentile for his height. Steve says basically he is a bowling ball! At his one week appt he was 8lbs 12.5 oz. So in 3 weeks he's grown 2 1/2 lbs! I do love those chubby cheeks! He is doing well. We have had a couple of rough nights sleeping (or lack there of). He is so addicted already to his binki. He was from day one. He's just one of those babys that needs to suck all the time. He will wake up and start screaming as soon as it falls out of his mouth. So we play this game where it falls out, he screams, I get up and plug him back in, wait a few minutes till I'm sure he's back asleep, I go back to bed and get all cozy and out it comes again. I let him cry for a few minutes to see if he will go back to sleep on his own, but it ends up waking him up more. This went on for 3 hours last night. I tried to make him forget about the binkster, and tried rocking him back to sleep to no avail. Its now becoming the root of all evil. So today he hasn't had it at all. He's been sleeping a lot today making up for last night. I don't like this game we seem to be playing already.

Then there's the feedings. Some of you may know that I am breast feeding, but I'm pumping it into a bottle instead of nursing. He wasn't taking to the breast, and neither one of us had the patience. I had the same frustration with Zachary, but back then he went to formula. Anyway, I've gotten flack from a lot of people (nurses mostly) for the pumping thing but whatever. It works for us. This way Steve can help with feedings, I can see how much he is getting, theres no teeth involved ect. Its just is easier for us. Most of the time. My only problem with it is that I cant seem to get ahead. I pump, he eats. I'm pumping every 2 hours and he is eating every 3. It seems like all I do all day is pump and feed. And, that's because I am! I'd like to be able to have enough for at least a couple of feedings in advance and eventually enough to freeze for when I go back to work. So I talked to the Dr and asked how I can produce more milk. He said to buy brewers yeast at the health food store and mix a teaspoon into a glass of milk daily. Ok, check. The can says "Wonderful nutty taste". Ok, I like nuts, yum. Got the stuff, and mixed it. Smelled nasty so I mixed in 2 tsp of Ovaltine. One sip and I almost spewed it across the floor. It was disgusting! Steve, positive that I was being over dramatic, takes a GULP and it has the same effect. I was sure he was going to say "Its not that bad, suck it up" . He was expecting to prove me wrong. Instead he's spitting it up, belching, making these awful sounds and faces, and makes me throw the can away immediately. It was that nasty. Wonderful nutty taste. HA! Those people should be sued for false advertisement! Theres some pills I can take so I'm going to try that. Those I have to take 6x a day but I don't care. Its better than 1 tsp of that crap!

4 weeks old today!

Ryan smiled at me this morning! Unfortunately nobody saw it but me. He's been kinda smirking, and he smiles in his sleep, but this morning it was a full fledged smile. Cant wait to see more of those! He has his 1 month dr appt on Monday. I cant wait to see how much he has grown. He's so big! I bet he is already over 10 lbs. I will post a pictures soon. Its been a crazy week.

Mmm Mmm Good!

Saturday I ventured out for the first time by myself since Ryan was born. I went to Big Y. Man it felt good to grocery shop as stupid as that sounds! So I was all excited Saturday morning, gearing up to my outing, when I got another surprise. Joe, Liz and Nicholas stopped by with a canoli for each of us from Mazacottos. Arnt they the best? They started our recent obsession and now there enabling it..Not that im complaining. LOL..They are so thoughtful. Gotta love those guys!

Lets hope

Cancer sucks. Maybe my very smart smart Zachary will find a cure some day.

My Very Smart Smart Zachary

Zachary has brought us another awesome report card! I'm so proud of him! His lowest grade was a B+. He went up in most subjects, and only went down in one. And by down, I mean he went from an A+ in Art last quarter to an A this quarter. We really take the teacher comments very seriously. All the comments were very positive. "A pleasure to have in class" "Classwork shows care and effort" "Good work habits" "Positive attitude" "Self motivated and responsible". We have now increased his bedtime from 9 pm to 9:15 and he has potential to stay up till 9:30 of all of his things are done by 8:30 (homework, dishes, and anything else I say ;0). Academically he has come a long way from where he was in the Enfield school system (K -3 in Enfield, 4-6 in Windsor). He really struggled in Enfield. And we are so so proud of him for turning himself around!