I think I hugged Auntie Bet last night. Once in a great while I have a dream so real that I swear Im actually in between worlds. Sometimes is the whole dream and other times its just one part of the dream. I seem to dream a lot, but not of this nature. Anyway, in my dream last night it didnt start off like it was present day. It seemed as though I was back in high school or in that era somewhere. I was dreaming that I was helping Kelly move out of her parents house and theres all these things going on at the same time as Im helping Kelly move -her cat had 2 kittens that we were trying to find homes for, we are waiting for the appliances to be delivered to her new house and its delayed so were mad because we cant order her new carpet until the appliances come, because they have to match. So, its just an odd regular dream. We are in moms old honda, and we have to meet her out at the Clarks. Im mad at mom for some reason and arguing with her a bit in the driveway, almost like she had held up our moving process in some way or another. So I walk into the house, and theres Auntie Bet with her arms wide open smiling from ear to ear to see me, and she just hugs me, as she always did when I walked through the door. And half way through the hug, I realize something. Im not sure what- I realize maybe that shes really gone, or maybe that this is just a dream. Im not sure, but I did know that this isnt something Im going to get in every dream, so I just keep on hugging her for several minutes and I wont let her go.
While the rest of my dream was maybe just my subconcious scatter brain thoughts, that one part of my dream was so intensly real like we were really standing in the middle of her living room. I cant explain it. But I will tell you this...I normally have such trouble sleeping now and last night I slept like a baby for part of the night anyway. That hug left me so content. This morning I also realized that tomorrow is the 2nd anniversary of her death, something I hadnt thought of till I had to look it up. I miss you terribly Auntie Bet.
About Me
- Sally
- Somewhere in, CT, United States
- Im 34 years old, and I work for a major airline. Mother to Zachary, Ryan and Grace. I have the best husband in the world, Steve. 2 dogs..Shadow the smart one and Murphy the princess. 2 cats Tiggy Piggy and Chloe Ruby. Welcome to my zoo. Ahh, LIFE IS GOOD!
3 comments:
That's a really good blog! That dream seems so vivid!! I remember my dreams while being pregnant were pretty vivid, more than they were when I wasn't pregnant, so maybe that's the case. But don't you often have vivid dreams? In any case, I'm really enjoying your blogging!! So much that I created my own acct. on here! Thanks for the inspiration!
~Jen
You're making me cry! Could it really be 2 years?? I miss her terribly too and feel in some ways like I was just with her but also feel like I haven't seen her for so long. I want a hug too. I know exactly what you mean. The big grin and the arms outstretched. I miss that so much. And honestly, mom would do something to make it delayed, she was like that. Stupid as it sounds I often am mad at her now that she's gone.
Thats kinda funny you dremt that I was moving, tomarrow will be one year here,someone tell me where the time goes. But now that I think of it, I do keep saying how I want to carpet the kids rooms and get a new washer and dryer, I guess the suttle hints I drop go in one ear and out the other...lol
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