Thursday, November 16, 2006

Dreams part 2

I got to thinking about the dream thing. Jen brought up a good point, maybe its the pregnancy thats leaving me dreaming so vividly. Heres my Aunt Lois dream. It was from 8/2/06. I immediatly wrote it down so I wouldnt forget..I knew it was important.Here goes: ...Zachary and I are fighting with something. Im not sure what but I think its a dog that were trying to get away from. So we go to the local sports supply store and were buying boxing gloves to fend off whatever it is. Theres a woman in the store who looks a lot like mom, clearly not her but could be a relative, and shes talking about the King family (My great grandmothers family. Since I didnt know who she was, I didnt say anything, So I get my boxing gloves and stick my hand inside and theres a note inside. - almost like a reciept thats dated 1970 and on the back its handwritten. Not sure exactly what it says but its talking about Harold August (my grandfather) and Grandpa King (my great grandfather whom Ive never met). So I go outside the store, (Z still in) cuz I want to call Steve and tell him about it. Instead I somehow get AUnt Lois' answering machine (Not that she ever had one) and I was thinking that I must still had her on my speed dial and how sad, that the machine is still there, but that is was good to hear her voice. Next thing I know, Im talking to her! Im not sure if she picked up the phone or called my cell phone. Anyway, it was all present time. I knew she was dead. I was fully aware that this is some mystery to be talking to a person from heaven on my cell phone, but instead of questioning it, I just talked to her. So I say "Aunt Lois, the weirdest thing just happened!" And I tell her all about the reciept in the boxing glove. She tells me it was left for me to find 30 years after I was born. Then I told her about the woman who looked like mom that was talking about the King family. And she said "Who is she?" I said I didnt know but I was going to find out. So the woman is now sitting outside the store on a park bench and I go sit next to her, still on the phone with Aunt Lois. So I say to the woman "Hi, Im Ellen Buck's daughter" expecting she would recognize the name but she didnt. I tell her I heard her talking about the King family andI mention "Ellen August" and she vaguley remembers her, but seems to know the older generation like Nana and Grandma King. Not personally, because the woman is about only in her 40's or 50's. So Im really unclear as to who she is, but I know she is related somehow. So I go around the back of the building to a parking lot to get some privacy and to her Aunt Lois better. And I tell her how much I miss her and Im crying as Im talking to her ans she says " O know, I miss you too" and I asked about mom and she says she is good. I tell her about the baby and she said "Oh?" like she used to say with a question in her voice. Then she said "you must be so excited!" and I say yes that Steve is over the moon and I told her all about how Z came home from school with a list of baby names the day after we told him. Then it seemed that the conversation was wrapping up so I tell her not to stop sending me signsso that I know shes around. And she says she wouldnt, so I need to watch for them. And that was it, the last thing she said. The dog barked and I woke up in tears. I woke up and said to Steve "I just had a conversation with Aunt Lois". It was so real, so vivid, but what gets me is that I actually HEARD her voice as if she were really on the phone. I heard her all through my dream! And it was very detailed. Things I was aware of in this dream that I normally dont notice...The noise of the outside street making me move to q quieter place, Zacharys whereabouts when Im trying to concentrate on my phone call. I remember looking at the womans hair and thingking it was the same color, style and texture of moms. Little details like that. But its her voice that gets me the most. I cant explain it other than it was comforting to hear her and it was nice to be able to tell her about the baby but at the same time I missed her so much!

1 comment:

Evil Dahlia said...

That dream definitely means something!! Maybe it's the sign Aunt Lois is talking about and maybe the woman from the store is actually your mother checking in but disguising herself so she doesn't seem "overprotective" or something? I know your mother is good for sending you signs and messages and she's always been a bit bold and subtle about it at the same time, if that makes sense. I just remember the pictures on your basement door and the one that fell off...that was definitely her, though I'm not sure of her choice, I'm sure there was more to it!! I kinda envy your dreams!! Mine are never vivid like that and if they are, they're not relevant to my life or people I've lost. Maybe I'm just really lucky to have not lost anyone important to me in my life. You definitely have a spirituality about you...not a religious thing, just a spirit that lives passionately in you!!