WELCOME TO OUR WORLD ABIGAIL!

My friend Liz finally had her baby. Abigail arrived yesterday after a long labor and weighed 6lbs 2 oz. Cant wait to meet you! 7 days or less and your new best friend will be here too! YEAH!

RYAN DANCING

I COULDNT RESIST....

So Im still hanging in there. Nothing new to report really. Baby is now head down. Butt up in my rib cage. Should be about 7 and 1/2 lbs now according to last weeks ultrasound. Growing good.
10 more days and counting at the most. I will keep you all posted.

I had a dream during my nap today that I had stretch marks on my forehead for all the world to see. Im not too self conscious am I? LOL

BUSY DAY

Yesterday was full of appointments. Cari came over and watched Ryan all day. Thank goodness, otherwise Steve was going to have to take the day off. It started with my regular OB at 9:15 in Enfield. My BP was good and I GAINED NO WEIGHT from previous appt 2 1/2 weeks ago! YEAH! Sounds like no big deal to have not gained in 2 weeks but as we all know the baby is gaining a half a lb a week now. So no weight gain in the last month of the 3rd trimester is damn miracle to me! (Foohey on you no teeth girl). The docs said I just have to make it till Monday without going into labor. If its before Monday, they will send me to Hartford Hosp (gasp!) high risk, and try and stop the labor. If its after Monday I will be 36 weeks and they wont stop it and I can go to Johnson. Im sure it wont be before Monday. For some strange reason I think it will be the week of March 17th. Maybe a St Pats baby!
Anyway, Then from Enfield onto my NST in Hartford. Baby girl was SIDEWAYS this time. Head on the left, feet up over my belly button on the right. So they could not get an accurate measurement of fluid due to her position. Her being transverse doesnt pose any problems since im having a C section, its just awfully uncomfortable. I have a big ultrasound next week so hopefully she will have turned by then. Baby appointments were now done for the day and it was off to my root canal. Yup, I survived. Suzie let me borrow her ipod which I think saved my sanity from not having to hear that drill or what they were saying above me. Zachary has an ipod, but frankly some his music scares me more than a root canal. Anyway, it was no picnic for sure, but I did ok. And I did it without meds! Knowing how much anxiety I had over it, they had given me Valium to take and cleared it with my OB, but I decided not to take it and still lived. The whole tooth thing is still not over, even after $530. 00 out of pocket I paid yesterday! (Just what I needed before im out of work). I have to go to my dentist in 5-6 weeks to get the temporary cap off and the real on put on. What a pain in my ass! I just want it to be done with!

MEAN PEOPLE SUCK

I know I bitch about this all the time. So if your sick of hearing it again don't go any further. Its the pregnancy comments again. I'm so sick and tired of people telling me I look like crap. Yesterday at work theres a woman giggling a few seats down from me. So my friend behind me asks her whats so funny? And she said "I'm just laughing at Sally's water retention". Nice. (This coming froma woman with no teeth). Why are people so mean? My friend later started to say "She didn't mean it that way...." and I cut her off and said "Please, find me another meaning for her laughing at my water retention, please I beg you to find me another explanation" and she said "Ya, I cant, I'm sorry, but you look great". Uh-huh. What is wrong with people? Its no wonder I have low self esteem, weight issues and zero self confidence. People tell me I look like shit all the damn time! They dont even try to hide it!. Now, I know Crystal and Judy my fellow former AAers will know who Im talking about by the "no teeth" comment and they will both say "Consider the source". And I would if it was just one person being an asshole. But its not one person, its not one isolated comment. It happens daily. "Are you sure theres just one in there?" followed by "or 2 or 3?" "OMG your huge!" "You look so tired" "You are so swollen" "Oh my gosh, look at your fingers, is that painful?" "you have how much time left?" or Zachary's laughing at me struggling to put my shoes on ..Those are just a few. I should start a daily post of these comments, you just wouldn't believe. Seriously, everyday someone puts me down. Of course I have Steve, who (lies) tells me I look beautiful and he helps me put my socks on. God I love him, he tries. He is so good to me and he's so sweet. Ive arrived at the point where Im really starting to hate pregnancy. I started off a little crabby about being pregnant 2 years in a row, and now I just want to cry all the time from embarrassment. Pregnancy is a miracle and should be a beautiful thing, yet every comment is negative. Every time I grocery shop, I think "God, please don't let me run into anyone I know". Again, dont get me wrong, Im so thankful for this baby, and we really wanted the little kids close in age. We are so lucky and I cant wait to meet her. Its not that I regret our decisions. Its just hard when your this pregnant and everything is a chore, and people laugh at you and make a point to tell you you look horrible. It tends to weigh on a girl. Pun intended. Point, laugh, stare, do what ya gotta do, but dont let me see or hear you. It hurts. I cant help my water retention. I cant help my bulging belly or my swollen fingers. I cant help that most of my shoes dont fit. Cant people just think about what their saying and say something nice for a change?
It just seems like I cant turn a corner without someone saying something. If its not rude, its dumb. Tonight I get to work and this woman yells from down the hallway "Nothing yet Sally?" Ya, lady, my water has broken and yet Im still punching in. WTH? You see me here and still pregnant do you? Then their are those that ask me if it was planned, as if its their business, and when I say Yes, they seem shocked, like "Why would you do that on purpose?". Ive been asked if I had fertility issues, and is that why I waited so long between the first two, Ive run into off color comments like "is your husband going to get you pregnant right after delivery this time?" Why is it A) anyones buisness and B) why would people be so nosey and rude?
I know, I know it will be over soon enough. But that wont make me look back on this pregnancy or the last as the miracle and beautiful experience it should be.